What do I need to be content?
Hello All! Happy Fall!!
So anyone who knows me knows I am a self proclaimed introvert. I love to be alone, I know that sounds kind of weird, but I am comfortable in my own skin and I like to just have quiet. And my quiet can come in many forms, reading a book, cleaning my house, taking a bubble bath, going for a walk, journaling, crafting, painting, and the list goes on. It doesn’t really matter what I am doing, I just like quiet. There are lots of things I love, shopping, pedicures, massages, handbags, shoes, makeup, and that list goes on too. But what I need, is time to recharge my batteries in a quiet setting. That is where my contentment comes from. And the strange thing is, let me preface what I am about to say by saying I am also somewhat of a people pleaser, I used to feel bad or guilty for asking or wanting time to be alone and just have some time to myself. I think as a Mom, I felt like time and quiet was a luxury I just couldn’t afford, maybe one day but not today. So I would push myself to the max, knowing I needed to reset and recharge but ignoring my need and just kept going. And what I got from that was a whole lot of resentment, resentment towards everyone who asked for my time when I was at the end of my rope. Everyone would just keep asking and asking for me to be in multiple places at one time and to run myself ragged (at least that’s what I was thinking). When in truth, I was the one who just kept pushing myself and could not set boundaries on my own limitations. I understand this whole concept a lot better than I used to but I still struggle with those boundaries. I probably to some extent always will since I love to say YES! YES! to everything. When instead I should be saying YES! to what really matters and what lines up with my priorities and goals and NO! to other things that I really don’t have the extra time for. I have stopped feeling bad for letting my loved ones know I need a little me time and I am a much happier person because I try not to push myself to my breaking point. No one and I mean NO ONE likes that girl, she is grumpy and short fused.
Where do you find your contentment? What do you NEED in order to be a happy functioning human?